Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I broke down and did it today...
Ok, I'm not supposed to test until Saturday but I have spent some small portion of the last few days reasoning with myself about taking vs. not taking a test.
This morning my husband found me standing in the kitchen staring out the window while I was reasoning with myself about taking one. Mind, I had already peed about four times before I decided to reason with myself. Probably not the best time to take a test but my reasoning was, if I really am pregnant, it won't matter when I take it or how many times I have peed.
For goodness sake, when I found out I was pregnant with my little Noodle Nose, I had been at dinner with friends where I enjoyed a couple beers; we got home and I jokingly took one with my friend who thought SHE was pregnant (I had no idea I was!). Joke was on me: she wasn't and I was! My point being, it was not early in the morning or the first pee, as the test instructions suggest.
So my husband finds me in deep contemplation this morning and so I tell him what I'm thinking and he (probably because he is sick of listening to me) said do it. Of course, I don't... I go upstairs, pee and take a shower. THEN after I get ready I have to pee again so THEN I decide to take one; telling myself the entire time that it's going to be negative.
Here's where the worst part comes in... I think this is the reason they tell you to wait so long: inconclusive results! Inconclusive results make for a much more anxious gal! The results being.... drumroll... there was a very very VERY faint line.
Now, that could mean a lot of things. So, here goes my brain again... Had I taken it early in the AM, before I had peed five times, as the test instruction suggest, would it be darker? Is it just 'leftover' HcG from the shots I have been taking? Because remember the shots? The ones my husband was ever so enthusiastically shooting me up with? They were HcG, the exact hormone that these fabulous little tests test for! The last one I took was last Wednesday, so how long does this stuff last?
So basically I'm back to square one: I still don't know only now I'm wracked with even more anxiety! Saturday can't come soon enough, unless my period comes first :(
And speaking of all ladies' favorite visitor, yesterday I felt so yucky and crampy. Who knows if it's THAT or THAT... today I feel the same, but it could be because I'm wearing nylons. :) They're so tight. (I'll hold the 'that's what she said' joke :))